Obedience

(Big breath)  For over a year, God has been nudging me in the direction of writing.  I have always kind of wondered....God, what is my talent, what is my strength, what am I good at, how do You want to use me?  I feel like the kind of person who is decent at a whole bunch of things.  But nothing really stands out.  God slowly began nudging me in the direction of writing.  I've always loved writing.  As a middle schooler, I would sit at the computer for HOURS typing up fictional stories.  That's how I taught myself to type!  I enjoyed doing that so much.  But writing for OTHER people to read....gulp.  That's scary stuff!  

A couple of months ago, I began a spiritual gift class at church.  I prayed, "God, please show me the gift/gifts you have given me so that I can use them for Your glory!"  And I believe that God answered my prayer through a text from my aunt.  I sent her an encouraging text, and this is what she sent me: "Angela, there is something so incredibly special about you and the words you're always able to share with others.  What a gift from God.  Thank you."  Those words GIFT FROM GOD shouted back at me.  The Holy Spirit began immediately saying, "Angela, here it is." God is so gracious like that.  He doesn't desire to leave us in the dark, just wondering!  

Actually, long before that text from my aunt, I had wrestled with the idea/thought that God wanted me to blog.  To encourage, to challenge, to share things God has taught me, to make others laugh, etc. I've been a bit resistant.  This requires an opening up of me!  Opening myself to judgment, to criticism, etc. etc.  I am a 9 on the Enneagram. (I may talk about that later.)  I resist conflict.  I enjoy my peaceful little bubble.  Haha.  To share like this will not be easy for me.  But I desire to obey God, and if He wants to use me in this area who am I to argue with that?  I have no idea who He wants to read my words.  But as He puts things in my heart and in my head, I will strive to obey and share what He wants me to share.  :)  

I will wrap up with this.....the name of my blog link is: iruntothefather.  I love this song by Cody Karnes.  Let me share a few of the words:

I run to the Father

I fall into grace

I'm done with the hiding

No reason to wait

My heart needs a surgeon

My soul needs a friend

So I'll run to the Father

Again and again

And again and again.

How I can relate!  God, it's me AGAIN.  Sometimes I wonder...does He ever get tired of me?  Coming to Him with the same sin, same problem, same request over and over and over again.  But He doesn't!!  Nope.  His mercy and love NEVER ends.  Amen for that!  The song goes on to say, "My heart FOUND a surgeon; my soul FOUND a friend, so I'll run to the Father again and again and again.  My heart has certainly found a surgeon and friend in Jesus.